i am so clueless that it sucks. my head is rushing, spinning around with a hell of sound and i don't know what to do. i wish it would all be back to normal, the holy life without shit and problems and things to brag about.

why the fuck does everything always have to fall into pieces, when it just starts to finally get normal. why is there always an up and down and why can't it all be on a constant level for some days. just some days..
everything i want is my peace and some freedom and no shit and nothing. it all really sucks right now but i can already see the next stone rolling into my way.

fuck it fuck it fuck it. i really need a fag.. and some time for my own to think which is like my favourite hobbye ever. not..

oh great.